Meditation for grief and the heart

A few weeks ago I had old grief coming to the surface again, and I was just crying all day. Four years ago I had lost my soul mate dog Monalisa to bone cancer at an early age of 4 1/2 years. I was so devastated, angry, feeling guilty, and I was ready to quit life altogether, I felt there was no use, the most important thing in my life had been taken from me. I blamed everyone, and everything for my loss and I despised myself for having become so bitter, frustrated and angry.
It was in this desperation I came across pranayama and from there to Kundalini Yoga. In my blog www.babshealing.blogspot.com you can read how pranayama has helped me in so many ways.
But back to a few weeks ago, when this old grief about Monalisa resurfaced during my working on my 3rd chakra.
I felt all this ugliness again, I felt so much pain and guilt it just ripped my heart to pieces I could not do anything else but cry.
Then I started humming in my mind Sat Kartar. I remembered that not so long ago I did a 40-day Sadhana through www.spiritvoyage.com, so I went to the website and checked out what it was all about; it is about opening your heart to love, to allow the flow of love through your heart. When the heart is in pain, grief and sadness and you feel there is no love only darkness, then do this meditation;
You can find it in the Book the Aquarian Teacher KRI International Teacher Training in Kundalini Yoga as taught by Yogi Bhajan or on the website of www.spiritvoyage.com You can also find the translation of Sat Kartar there.
I did this meditation for 11 minutes, and my heart felt better I sat quiet and bought Monalisa into my heart I cuddled her in my heart and then said goodbye. I could feel her leave, I felt a smile on my face with some tears, but a sense of peace and warms came over me, then a big sigh and some deep breathing, a big weight had lifted from my heart. I went and got Monalisa's ashes and spread it around the garden. My two dogs Becci and Ebony were just watching at first then they started to chase the ashes in the wind, their faces got covered in the ashes it was so funny. Yes, Monalisa had a sense of humour, and always she was very playful, so it all fitted so nicely.
I went back inside sitting down with a cup of tea thinking about Monalisa, all the pain had gone all the guilt, the anger and frustration had gone. I felt blessed in being able to feel such powerful healing with this Sat Kartar meditation! When I think of Monalisa now I see us swimming on the ocean side by side the most amazing experience I ever had with a dog, words cannot do it just.
The meditation Sat Kartar is so powerful just amazing! Kundalini Yoga does work, and it transforms what needs to be transformed, and the healing is on a very deep level. If you feeling grief, sadness, and your heart feels as if there is no love when the flow of love is stuck then this meditation Sat Kartar will help you heal!