Feeling insecure,this Meditation Excel, excel fearless will help

Many of us are feeling insecure or have a lack of confidence and therefore are feeling fearful and unable to try things and give our dreams ago. All through my life I have always had a lack of confidence, always felt I was not good enough, but somehow I always had the courage to give things a go and follow my heart...yet I always felt that I failed in all my undertakings. I was never good enough, never able to achieve what was expected of me or what I expected of myself. Somehow I always compared myself with other people and always felt I was just not as good as them. I have been walking through life trying to achieve something, to be good at something only to find out that really I was not that good at anything at all. I guess when it came down to, how others and myself would measure how good I am, was how much money I could make....and of course, all my career choices are the once I do not make money with.

So every time I have an idea I want to do this or that and I put my heart and soul into this new idea....at the end it would fail as I could not make any money from it, why because of my lack of confidence, the fear that, what I was doing, would not be good enough, the fear of promoting myself because I was not good enough, it all set me up to fail.

What I realised is that I can not write like everyone else, I can not blog like everyone else, I can not paint like everyone else and somehow I do not want to do things like everyone else, I want to be me, but I am not good enough. When I look at my life I see everything has rules and there is a thing in how one suppose to do it. Like writing it should be done a certain way there are boundaries in how one should be doing things. When I started painting it all came from my heart and I just love it and it gives me a boost and the colours bring healing to me....but it's not how it is done! And so, what I do is not good enough.

Because everything we do comes with a bunch of rules and boundaries, for everything we want to do, we suppose to go and get a certificate to prove that we have actually learned it. Can we learn creativity? Can we learn to work from our hearts can we go and do a course for all those things...the answer is yes there is a course to learn absolutely everything. And it's to keep us under control, within boundaries and it stops us often to follow our dreams. I often ask myself who actually makes all these rules? Who decides how something should be done? I may keep on failing in the eyes of others, and maybe I will never make tonnes of money, but with the following meditation I have learned to accept myself  and to be excited by all the things I do, to value myself and the things I do, to live in the present moment and just fully enjoy my creativity in living my life my way, breaking through boundaries that others set for me or I have set for myself, and I have come to treasure and be in awe of my life and the things I do achieve...even if it is nothing in the eyes of others.

This is a very simple meditation that helps me to stay on top, to get through any insecurity I may feel. The wonderful thing is you can do this meditation for just a few minutes whenever you feel insecure or fearful or lack in confidence. Often I do this meditation a few times during the day and I have found that I go through phases where my lack of confidence comes back especially when I start a new project, but within a few minutes of practising this meditation, I am back on my track of following my dreams.

 Excel, excel fearless
Close your eyes with a straight back and inhale deeply hold your breath while in your mind you chant; I am bountiful, I am blissful, I am beautiful, then exhale and keep the breath out while chanting excel, excel, fearless. Do this for as long as you like relax at the end take a few extra deep breath and then follow your dream without boundaries and restrictions and expectations just be you!
What is right or wrong anyway?
What is a failure anyway?
All it is, it is just a point of view and for me, everyone is a success, everyone is creative!

Connecting, with the earth and universe at the heart

Dharti Hai Akash Hai Guru Ram Das Hai is a mantra that helps you connect with the earth and the universe at the heart centre.
For me, it is one of my favourite meditation while I am visualising being connected to the earth Dharti Hai and the universe Akash Hai and bringing it to the heart to project the light out into the world Guru Ram Das Hai. This meditation and mantra are helping me to stay grounded and connected. It takes away the feeling of loneliness, the feeling of being an outsider and not fitting in. When I do this meditation I can feel myself expanding and my aura expanding, it helps me to feel more positive and it helps me to draw abundance and prosperity into my life. I feel comforted and so much more secure.

A few days ago I have just started doing this meditation again as over the past month or so I have felt alone, and I felt an outsider again. Feeling insecure in everything I do and this has caused me to only get negative feelings in any of my undertakings and it felt as I was about to fail again. This meditation just came to me as in the past when I did this meditation it had helped me in so many ways. And again just doing this meditation for eleven to twenty-one minutes a day makes all the difference. It is a feeling of being loved and nurtured and that everything will be fine. The connecting to the earth and universe feels like I am expanding, and I feel like there is no boundary between me and the world it gives me the feeling of oneness, finding the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.
I use Gurunam Singh's YouTube music for the meditation as I love his version. I have been doing this two-three x a day at the moment and it really has been picking me up again in a very short time. I just love this meditation. With this meditation, you can experience that I call "A touch of gold" at the heart centre and this painting I created during a time I did this meditation over a period of forty days.

There are so many meditations and mantras out there that now I just use my intuition and I know that I get guided, to what I need to work on in each moment. I follow my inner guidance in how often to do a meditation a day and for how many days I need to do it. I meditate daily and I always flow from one meditation to the next. Learning to let go and be guided really works for me so long I stay in awareness.